Helt, halvt eller ingenting

Jeg vet ikke hva jeg skal si, det er derfor jeg ikke sier noe i det hele tatt. Jeg vet ikke hva jeg kan si til deg uten at det blir feil. Men jeg savner deg, altfor mye, selv om jeg vet jeg ikke burde. Og jeg er glad i deg, det skulle jeg ønske du visste, jeg skulle ønske du visste det. Men fremdeles angrer jeg ikke. Jeg beklager.



Men idag da jeg slo på Otmar iPod, fant jeg ut at alt jeg har lyst til å si allerede er sagt. Av Alanis Morissette. Om du bare hadde visst...



are you still mad I kicked you out of bed?
are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?
are you still mad I compared you to all
my forty year old male friends?
are you still mad I shared our problems
with everybody?

are you still mad I had an emotional affair?
are you still mad I tried to mold you into
who I wanted you to be?
are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions?

of course you are
of course you are

are you still mad that I flirted wildly?
are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you?
are you still mad that I had one foot out of the door?
are you still mad that we slept together
even after we had ended it?

of course you are
of course you are

are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time?
are you still mad that I seemed to focus
only on your potential?
are you still mad that I threw in the towel?
are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?

of course you are